August 2, 2012
ANA Flight NH 010
Some where over the Pacific Ocean near Russia
The plane is now flying over the Pacific Ocean and according to the map we are about to cross the International Date Line and I am having a moment.
I have been wanting to Visit New York ever since Nat moved there some 12+- years ago. Now, I am eight hours away.
I etched into stone my desire to visit New York a year ago. This was the time when I felt that there was a need in me to refresh my skills as a makeup artist and at the same time the need fulfill Nat’s 12-year-old invitation. So instead of going on a mindless vacation, I decided to study at the same time.
Getting to the point where I am now, I have just realized, is a very humbling experience. I have never worked so hard to try to fulfill a dream. I asked for money from my parents and I even borrowed money.
Trying to come up with money was tough.
It got tougher when I began to doubt myself. It got a bit tougher when other people started doubting me. It became stressfully tougher when I had to wait for 4 months for word from the school that I got accepted and on when I can move forward with my enrollment. My nerves went out the window as soon as I walked into the doors of the US Embassy for my M1 visa interview.
How stress was I, you ask? My right eye was twitching for 2 months!
It’s a good thing I am a very patient person with impaired hearing and a crazy mind! *Laughs*
But I do have to admit. I have never been so scared in my life. After all this is the biggest monetary expenditure I have ever made.
To experience the realization of a dream slowly unfolding before you is a profound gift. It gives you knowledge. The knowledge that you can do what ever your heart desires as long as you work hard for it. I cried with relief and gratefulness inside the lavatory of ANA flight NH 010 bound for New York from Tokyo.
May I be liberal in quoting Judi Dench’s character named Evelyn in the film “ The Best Exotic Marigold Hotel For the Elderly and Beautiful” that I saw on board the flight , for leading me to this “AHA!” moment:
“The only real failure is the failure to try.
And the measure of success is how we cope with disappointment. As we always must.
As long as we try.
Can we be blamed that we are too old to change?
To scared of disappointment to start it all again?
We get up in the morning and we do our best.
Nothing else matters.”
Thank God for old people, for they do speak wisely.